The Calm After the Storm

Cover Photo by Emil Jarfelt on Unsplash

“Bad things happen in batches”

Although, I love quotes and old sayings, I have never heard that one before. Recently, I was talking to S and she mentioned it to me. There’s a 99.99% that she’s right. She has this magical way of calming me down when I feel uneasy or unsure of myself. She’s the real MVP.  It’s been dreary and raining a bunch in New England, I feel like I am in an Edgar Allan Poe poem lately. He has such a dark and beautiful mind. He’s an incredible write, however I cannot read his stuff all the time. It’s a bit too eerie and melancholy for me.

I am not a big fan of rain, that’s probably why I cannot live in Seattle, Portland, or London at this point in my life. I love when it rains, I just hate wet feet. It’s the worst. Actually, do you know what’s worse than wet feet? Wet socks. You’re just asking to get pneumonia. The change in season, the whether, and major life changes are catching me off guard. I’ve been a bit “frazzled” lately due to some unfortunate circumstances. Side note: I just noticed in the last few emails I sent I said “frizzled” rather than “frazzled.” I am something else. Luckily, they were just to some friends/acquaintances on the Internet.

Anyways, I feel like there must be something in the air lately. Maybe, it’s the change of season? Many people in my world are facing such big changes right now especially my close friends. It’s normal to feel like you have no idea what you are doing with your life. It does not matter what age, field of work, or gender you are. We are all humans and trying to figure it out for ourselves. Sometimes, I feel that way even though I am such an ambitious/goal-oriented person. Does my life even have a purpose? I guess it’s hard to say because you never know what will happen next. I feel like everyone has a purpose, you may just not know it yet.

Why is this happening? Why does so-so seem like he/she has everything figured out? Why is everyone engaged? There is not a single person who has everything figured out for oneself. Every human is struggling with something whether you see it on the surface or not. Some of us are better at hiding it than others. My blog helps me because I feel like I don’t have to hide who I am from anyone anymore. It’s helping other people too. It’s a nice feeling. Strangely enough, I felt anxious and weird earlier this week. Many strange things happened to me this summer and a bit of it has followed me into the fall.

I am such a reasonable person. I always like to know why this or that happened, but sometimes you just have to let it be. You can’t spend your entire life looking for the answer to everything. You just have to go with the flow and hope for the best. Maybe, the recent events that have taken place are a blessing in disguise? I hope so. I feel like bad things happen to me when I am not being myself. Or maybe, I really am cursed?

A’oodhu bi kalimat-illah il-tammati min ghadabihi wa ‘iqabihi, wa min sharri ‘ibadihi wa min hamazat al-shayateeni wa an yahduroon. I have no idea. I recently bought a hamsa bracelet and as silly as it sounds it makes me feel a little safer. Recently, as creepy as it sounds, I got a camera for my car due to all the construction in Boston. If this is what I have to do to feel safe, then this is exactly how I will live.

More importantly, I finally got to see my munchkins at the homeless shelter this week. I took a break for a little while. It felt so great to see their sweet smiling faces. I haven’t seen them in about a month and many of them already look taller/older. I feel like a grandma, especially since I am short and some of them are taller than me. I stopped growing in first grade, so there’s no hope now. I’ll just be buried in heels or stand on my tiptoes for the rest of my life. No biggie.

Yesterday, I reached out to an engineer on this platform and he helped me fix my Google Suite. Eric, you are the best! I’m so excited, I still need to change/fix the name. After thanking him, he sent me this message. Obviously, I added my cute bitmoji to display it here for you.

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It made my day after having a rather strange/moody/unfortunate week. I hope things will look up within the next month. I love fall, so get ready for beautiful fall foliage! I am going to start vlogging soon too, so stay tuned. I am still deciding what I should talk about, I’ll probably mix it up. People always ask me what products I use, where I buy my clothing, and etc. Perhaps, I’ll do a little of that. I want to talk about more substantial things too though. There are already many beautiful makeup/skin care/ hair bloggers. I need to find my niche. Maybe, how to cook a meal, be confident, and how to stay healthy?  Who knows, time will tell. Hope you all in enjoy this beautiful breezy fall Thursday.

 

xo xo sarishboo