S is for Sarish

People in my life usually have nice things to say about me more often than not. I am flattered by those compliments, however I don’t spend more than a second thinking about it. I don’t live my life to be those things. Being funny, pretty, or nice is such a temporary evaluation of a human being. I don’t get any satisfaction out of other people envying my life. I do not derive fulfillment from one’s wishes, expectations, or needs. I have and always will welcome good people into my life. My parents raised my siblings and I to be generous independent females. I don’t care what most of my friends or family members say and they all know it. Because throughout every stage in life, I’ve always invited someone new along for the ride. I’ve never cared about being #1 or the best. I’ve honestly never had time to focus on getting the top spot because I’ve always had to do about a thousand other things. That’s not to say I am the busiest person in the world, everyone is busy.

It would be quite the accomplishment to graduate top of my class with Latin honors. I would be more impressed with myself to know that I was able to do it. At the end of the day, when it’s all said and done, I just want to be remembered as being my own person. I am just Sarish. I do not aspire to be anyone other than myself. And neither should you. To aspire is to direct your hopes or ambitions towards being something. I am not a thing, I am person.  The truth is, regardless of your field of work, legends never die. If you are legendary, then you are an extremely famous or notorious person, especially in a particular field. I want to be successful in life. I am not sure why that would bother anyone? This is my life, my desires should not both anyone else. What’s wrong with aspiring to be a good attorney? I am not saying you cannot do the same. Anyone can do it.

I am hard to please. I do not “play” hard to get. This is not a game, I am just hard to get. I am not easily satisfied with anyone or anything. It has nothing to do with perfection. I highly value respect, perspective, and maturity.  The term “perfection”  is the condition or quality of being free or as free as possible from all flaws or defects. Every single human being has imperfections. Everyone. I have plenty of flaws and defects. I do not publicly advertise them to the world because I don’t need anyone to use it against me. I have never truly liked myself and I finally do. Why is that such a bad thing? I am not the type of person to complain about my problems to everyone. I have no problem with someone venting on social media about how he or she dislikes this or that. I would probably just change my filters. That is not to offend anyone. To be offensive is to cause someone to feel deeply hurt, upset, or angry. Why does my opinion of anyone matter? People can change their filters so they do not have to see me either. It’s part of life.

The truth is, I can be an incredibly selfish person. I’ve absolutely lacked consideration for others, concerned chiefly with my own personal profit or pleasure. In the past, I have yelled at the Princeton Review accountant for taking money out of my account without consent. Sometimes, I blow up on my friends and family members when they attack me. There was a time in my life when I counted likes and now, I look back at that girl and laugh. I am not a fan of the college version of Sarish. If you know you are liked, then why are you counting likes? Now, I only post things because I like what I post. I could careless if anyone else does or does not. There aren’t enough likes, comments, and shares in the world for me. I feel just as good with 20 likes as I do with 140 likes.

Kevin Systrom and Mike Krieger, the Founders of  “the Gram” created that platform so the average person could post pictures and share what he or she enjoys most in life. As always, human beings like competition and now girls compete with each other for likes, comments, and random Barstool Sports halloween competitions. I have nothing against women on social media who aspire to be models or actresses. Honestly, I am happy for you. If you are proud of your body and pretty face, then what’s wrong with seeking attention on the Internet to build your brand? Nothing. There is nothing wrong with that mindset. If you are confident and love yourself, then you should be proud of yourself.

On a personal level, since I am an aspiring lawyer, there is a 99% chance that I would never display myself in that manner on social media. Never as in at no time in the past or future; on no occasion; not ever.  It is one thing to take a picture in a bikini with your friends. You absolutely should be proud of your body. However, it’s another thing to position yourself in provocative angles with your cheeks and goodies out for judgement. Provocative is deliberately arousing sexual desire or interest. If you do not think you are being provocative, then kindly acknowledge the fact that I am not speaking to you. Some men are ruthless and want women to feel like they are nothing more than a sexual object. I have seen it first hand at work, in bars, and in college.

If I were to put myself in that female’s shoes, all I can imagine is speaking to my future children. “Mom, what was your claim to fame?” You know, I just laid out practically naked on the Internet. I had 100.4k followers, I got a 10,000 likes, and a number of creepy men looking at my body almost free of cost. I do not know if I would be embarrassed or if I would just think that was the social norm. I am not passing judgement on you. I am not some holy or virtuous person.  I just do not understand how others are easily satisfied with Internet validation.

It must be worth it if you are making a few extra thousand dollars from that lifestyle. Money is the motivate. With that mindset, I might as well join the adult film industry, I would probably get paid more money, and get my message across a broader audience sooner. Women are disposable in every industry whether you are an actress, model, or adult film star. You are only considered desirable until something prettier, younger, and a hotter bodied girl comes around and takes your spot.  I am not talking about every single Instagram girl. I am speaking of a select few that almost anyone who reads this will understand what I am saying outloud.

I did not call you an adult film star. You created that thought and misinterpreted what I said. Kindly check your own logic. Trust me, I know all of my male counterparts love what you are doing with yourself. I have many close guy friends, so I have a rather good understanding of how they think. Human beings are complex creatures. Men want a pretty face with a nice body and a brain. You may have two of the three desirable qualities. You may be brilliant too, however I can promise you no one is paying attention to your brain. You are better than that don’t sell yourself short. But what do I know, I am short, and I do not know everything. You do you!

I can only imagine how Robert E. Kahn and Vint Cerf feel knowing that the global computer network they created is being put to good use. Without their creation, Google, Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, and any other internet sensation would not exist. What would our lives be like without innovation, creativity, and open-mindedness? I try to be a neutral, progressive, and unbiased thinker. Innovation is what helps mankind move forward in time. If Cosmopolitan, Women’s Health, or Sport’s Illustrated magazine paid me to be on the front cover, then maybe I would engage in an activity such as that one.

If seeking validation from the Internet is what makes you feel beautiful, then you absolutely should do it.  Every women knows and understands how difficult it is to be a female in a male dominated world. I am a firm believer in having every girl in this world loving herself. In all honesty, a women should not have to be modest to be respected, however the prejudice against women says otherwise. People are stupid. Men say dumb things, live your life and love yourself. If you want to know runs with world, then you should ask Beyonce because it’s girls! There isn’t a single male on this planet who got here without one.